End of financial year. Everything looks good and jolly outside only.

It's the end of the financial year, lesser workload.

But Leo still don't feel any good about himself. Thinking about so many things in life. i.e. How to stay positive, get more money, teach his daughter what is right or wrong, how to find more time to exercise and how to do the things he usually like. And finding time to be just that crazy and full of energy Leo. And also most importantly concentrate on his work.

Leo is sad for leo has no one to resonate his life or to have anyone to just talk out whatever shit Leo is dealing with. (His good friend Anthony has died of a heart attack Infront of him and he couldn't do a shit about it.)

In workplace Leo have to shut the fuck up and do his work. Cos colleagues are complianing that he has so much to talk about but cannot concentrate on his work. In the end they do not know Leo is stressed out in life. And just want to talk about anything. But will not talk much about his life. Cos Leo's defense is up as there is no real person that you can really talk to about in life at in his work place. Ppl will only "click" with you only when you talk good about them or speak "their language".

The only thing Leo can just do is to blog. Leo don't think ppl will blog much anymore. Since facebook, Twitter and Instagram is now the "in" thing. Ppl showcasing their life for everyone out on the internet. Show love and their happiness. No one will care about anyone's anger, sadness or even plight. Everyone is always putting on a mask to everyone. And not the real person Infront of alot of people.

Life is tiring and Leo just need a proper someone to talk to spill all the shit and sadness to and just go on with his life.

Time to end this blog as life still has to go on no matter what.

And may Leo be happy and have lots of luck by his side. (Cos he needs it).

Depressing thoughts of 2018

Dragging myself to work everyday, putting on a happy face to idiots that think about your freaking work performance only.

2018 is a tough and difficult time for me. Ppl think i'm happy at giving lousy work. Health issues isn't getting any better.

Frequently emotion joyrides given by certain ppl, made numbness of my hands and feet being more and more frequent. Trying to find ways to get more income. Yet it is so hard since you have no network and contacts. And your only best friend has left this world with your father having a second stroke. And you having to fear that youself will too get a stroke, due to the constant numbness. Not everyone will know how you feel. Not everyone understands how you feel.

Ppl taking pride in beating you down cos you work in the public service. And your own organisation is constantly fighting a internal war to taichi things. It's freakin disgusting and tiring to work in a place like this where you have to constantly watch your own back. And you go back to a place that is always constantly giving you a lot of different shit compliants about your children that is due to their way of interfering your teaching of your children in the past. Where you have no place and no one to tell or vent out your problems

Everyday have to handle all the emotional shit.