No motivation and Pondering

Leo think he like this person very much again. But he doesn't have the drive and motivation after he seen the setback and problems within his friends and acquaintance. But he is this thinking of her no matter. So what is Leo thinking? He, himself doesn't even knows the answer. Is it fear? Or is it just because he doesn't love her enough? Maybe he really get his mind straight and is thinking of someone else? Then again he might be just because he don't want the responsibility. He often ponders why did Brenda says that he is a playboy, where he doesn't even got any one night stands and he doesn't flirts to random women. Well, Nobody will know what is going in Leo's head. And even he himself doesn't even know what he has going in his head. Leo thinks he is clear of what he want, as the matter of fact he doesn't know what he really want at all. Just like a kid liking stuff and wanting to do everything. His ability is very limited and often can't do everything. Does Leo really like this girl? If doesn't like her why is he thinking of her every time he stare into space. Why does he yearns to be with her when ever he is alone?

Marriage (leo's own blabberings)

Marriage to Leo this word look so damn strange to him. Why. It is because to him, he see marriage in a different way. Other then taking the vow of taking care, loving each other and spending time together for the rest of their lives. Is it marriage itself can bond 2 person together or is it a chain to lock 2 person together. To Leo, with love, marriage is a bond with mutual understandings and forgiving of both parties. Without love, it is just chains to lock each other up with mutual resentment and torture to each other. So everybody love their partners marriage is a bond, what if the bond slowly became a chain where both parties blame and resent each other for minor faults of each other. Which accumulate through out time and slowly the chain becomes heavier and heavier till both parties cannot take it anymore they will go to a blacksmith(Lawyer) to take away the chain.

Love at 1st sight?

Love at 1st sight for my rather think it as lust in 1st sight. When a person see another and person and have affection for him/her, usually is looking at the appearance of the person. I would call that lust at 1st sight not love.