Blabbering

Life what is it? Experience why do people go through it? Emotions, why does it make people feel it? Acting as what people feel and want,why? Doing stuff to make people happy which you don't even feel happy at all, why? Everyone has different answers to this kinds of question. In this society, people compare. Like who has higher education, who has a bigger car, who has a bigger house, who has a prettier wife/ handsome husband, whose kid got the top place in class, who got any kind of awrd, whoes kid got any kind of award, who is more successful, who have more money, who is stronger, who is better.
This has been created by society, rules ,culture and beliefs which have been created by man themselves. which everyone in the world are following. Like education i need better qualification to get a stable bigger pay check this is input into the everyday human through out the world.
Why is there economy crisis, financial crisis? Money itself is created by man the value of money is also created by man. These are one of the restriction and beliefs made by man. What would become of this world if one day people discard the so called "value" on things itself? Will there not be economy crisis? Cause everything in everyone's mind throughout the world doesn't care the value of things?
Laws, rules, regulations and restrictions these are the thing that restrain people that are different and make every person the same. Is it really the right thing to be the same as everyone else? If it so why would there be people breaking such rules and regulations? And why ppl want to be different? And being different may also cause you ending up in jail, despised or even hated by ppl around you. Isn't this so called laws and rules is there to protect every single person? And why is it so when someone comes out with a different idea that doesn't suits these ppl the handle this so call law, oftenly being charge and locked up, as with these ideas are intentions of good to normal ppl.

ok enuff of blabbering time to sign off and go fill some forms

THX for the celebration guys

Came back from polar's house after a play for fun mahjong session and sleep.Arrived at his house 7pm then ask him why did he ARGH when the door hits his back when he opens the door. Then he told me has a slip disc. His walking posture looks awkward due to the pain.
Well, didn't expect to have a cake yesterday, a birthday cake came out at 10.55pm yesterday when they say stop the game for supper. A small celebration of my birthday held at polar's house with lynn and ben. The cake was mango not bad since it came out from four leaves. took a few pics standard leo 'bo liao' poses for the photo. After continued with mahjong with the table squeezed into polar's bed room cos he needs to lie down once awhile cos of the pain, while playing mahjong i logged in the facebook and played pet society for a while using polar's com,then we stopped at ard 3. Watched a russel peter show for ben's lappy. then slept till ard 12 today.

Thx guys for the celebration. Polar hope you get better.

Leo Lee Eng Tee

Leo, Lee, Eng, Tee. All 4 of this are surnames add them up and you'll get my name. Well, this isn't something new but i just wanna add this to my blog as i remember someone said this before.

Leo. How did this name i call myself came from? back in my secondary ppl keep calling me by Eng Tee, yongdi and lao gao and one person like to call me yingdi well at that point of time my brother was enlisted in the army so i ask why his no. 4 puts Lee E K on it. Then i know E K stands for his initials as he told me. Later on my secondary sch ppl of my year wanna form a soccer team of their own i remember it was called The Spirits, So we went on to print soccer jerseys and putting the name we want on it. Then the guys put their christian name on it, at that point i dun have a English name so i improvise on my initials taking the L from Lee plus my initials i called myself, LET. Well i still have that jersey in my closet although the printing was worn and i got a same no. with the other guy. After NS i found my 1st job it was outdoor sale where the boss want's me to give him a English name that would be easier for him to call. Well i remembered i call myself LET in my sec sch years but thinking it was odd for him i decided to change the T to O there for LEO has became my so called English name.

Lee is my surname nothing to really talk about how it came from.

Eng and Tee also nothing to say about too cos it's given by my father

Yet another year have passed for Leo Lee Eng Tee

Well today's my birthday dun intend to celebrate cos no plans before and no cash( well i just think like this cos i dun wanna spend them). yet another year has pass for me. Year 26 time to sort out what i really want in life pass life as it is all these passed 26 years living the happy go lucky way and i dun give a damn attitude. It's time to think and do what i really want in my life and live it. Oh since it's my birthday for starters, i'll make a wish then.

Wish i get a good job real quick <==.(the waiting for good thing to happen attitude) Well i'm kinda unable to find a job for almost about a year and having a manufacturing engineering diploma isn't much help. Shld have stayed on working instead of studying for 3 years.when economy aint as bad now.Maybe i'm too picky and wanted to find an engineer job.Well i t's really time to go back and train get my judo black belt and maybe try to get my karate black belt too.

Celebrating my birth with a mahjong session. LoL, well these guys i having mahjong with dun even remember it's my birthday. it's just a random "hey let's go play mahjong a this guy's house." Most of my birthdays are quite one never really celebrated it officially on the day itself. Only one celebrated late was last year's birthday.It was just an excuse just do a BBQ saying because it's my birthday by my frens and the NYP judo club guys that are closer to me and it was like a few days late. I hardly hear ppl celebrate birthdays late, well my only one is one of the few maybe.

Well coming to the end of this bulletin i'll wish myself a happy birthday." HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LEO" "And may your sugar mummy fantasy come true too. LOL."

Bored at home

After no luck of job hunting, i'm still rotting at home. Bored and no extra money to spend. Although i do have money that i really dun feel like spending. Well like every other day i'm still rotting at home smelling my rotting full of odor body rotting in mindless shit on the internet slowly corroding my brain away with my aching neck and back these few days. i guess it's time to go out and do some excercise after this neck dun hurt no more. mindlessly went on tagged just now saw a msg left by someone which got msn so added her then i chat for awhile and found out another cam model. Wah buay sian arh why all these cam model like to go on internet find ppl to go see them in webcam on some site. Too bad i'm not a woman if not i might do that too. Well no one like to see a guy on webcam and pay him, right? That's just totally turns people off. OK, that's all i have to say. Boring post.

A really strange dream

Just woke up after having a few dreams and intend to write this particular dream that i had today. This dream is strange in a fact that it is me going back for ICT (for those who don't know ICT means In-Camp Training. It's for ppl that has finished their 2 years national service to train them so they won't forget how to use their rifle and their basic military stuff.) but really i don't know is it ICT or what it just a military camp. Ok back to the dream, It's the 1st day of ICT don't remember why but i have stay in camp. Booked in, drawn my rifle and i was given different bunk aside from the guys in the platoon. it's with the same level with my platoon but it's d different flight of stairs which separates from the platoon alone by itself where there are no other bunk, then in my mind i was thinking area cleaning siao liao lar sure in-charge of this whole area. then the funny part is this bunk has only 2 bed when i reach it and the odd part is the toilet is just in the bunk itself. It seems more like a master bed room in HDB then a military camp bunk. The more the odd it is my bunk mate is not even there yet. So i relaxed at the table threw my field pack and stuff at the side and went down to the vending machine to get a drink. To my surprise i seem to saw some nyp guys i knew, preparing to go for some karate tournament. The funny thing is these guys were guys i know from nyp judo odd but it's possible. Talked to them a bit and went back to my bunk, when i reach my bunk i saw my stuff was not on the table so i checked my cupboard it was neatly unpacked and my stuff was all in there. Then i saw my bunk mate cupbard was open but i did not see anybody in the bunk. Out of curiosity i took a peek at the opened cupboard, then i was shock, why the hell is a spaghetti strap in the cupboard hanging there. In my mind, i was thinking is this guy some drag ah gua or what, this time siao lar sleeping alone with ah gua. To come to notice i heard some running water in the toilet, so out of friendliness i drag myself to go greet my bunkmate in the toilet and to pee too. While peeing i shouted out:"My name is Leo but you can call me lao gao or E.T if you like. Buddy!!" Then i heard a feminine giggle coming out from the shower, which is kinda eerie why is there a female in the shower giggling, so i dashed out of the toilet took my buddha amulet and sat at the table pretending nothing happend. After the running water stopped, out came a woman naked wiping her hair and smiling saying :"What are you looking at? Buddy." At that moment i was shock while looking at her. Well, her body was voluptuous but she looks quite young and small sized. Her slightly tanned look makes her more attractive with her long hair. I couldn't believe my eyes why am i in an army camp with a woman in my bunk, so i step over touched her face to to see if she is real or not. She gave me a weird stare while smiling asking what am i doing. So i showed her the amulet and said in a jokingly manner, that i thought that she was a ghost and have to make sure that she is real. After that i found out she actually knows some of my ITE friends that is in another company in the camp when we go to the cook house for dinner and saw them. And just when i remembered that i don't even know her name and was about to ask her. My mum came into my room and and woke me up from my dream and ask me to go buy dinner. That's when i realize that it was a dream, well it's not a wet dream but the woman that's naked in there seems odd to me.
Then i realise today's friday i should be bringing someone to katong sensei's dojo for judo training but heck it's already 8 going would be a waste of time since training had started at 7. Then i decided to go back to sleep becuase i'm lazy to buy dinner. And had a few other dreams like traveling to places and santa looking for a wife or something like that before waking up to write this blog down.

Skorpion Multi Terrain Skates

Surfing the net looking at inline skates stumble upon this funny looking skates which has some what look like suspension on it, much like the old skool types of skate, this shit suddenly stirred a bit of impulse on buying it. Maybe next time go down e-hub to have a look. It would be best if someone buy it for me on my birthday my shoe size is 8 got small feet hahaha. Well hoping only, sure won't get it for my birthday one cos i'm a guy, guys dun get this types of expensive gifts one. It cost $149.99 on vpost skatesports member price $149 EXPENSIVE right?

It is time to change back to E.T.

Once E.T wants to do things he'll do it. he will not think too much of the consequences and never regret what he does.To come to think of it, i'm still pretty much that way in my 1st year of poly. Life is too short, why think of the things that might happen when you even haven't try. You'll need to do it to know what happens after. So what's a little bit of rejection and failure, you know you have done what you wanted that's all you had done it. And regrets, why regret and think negatively after you had done it, it is done even there is regrets what done is done why think about it just move on. These thinking was in me 3 years before, it's like my living motto. So till this date Leo decided to throw these 3 years of him away, and be the confident, fun, cocky person he always been. And do what he like best.

Some stuff of a sagittarius

SAGITTARIUS MAN

A man who loves social life and curious about every new progress, new development to make sure he is in the era and always have all up date information. He likes to know what is the latest trend of fashion and make sure he is not out of style. You can easily spot him at the grand opening of new pub, new restaurant for he loves to participate in social activity.

There is a few Sagittarius who is a private person as well, but you could see that he will be ahead of his friends. He will knows what is the best seller book, what are the top 10 hot hit of the week. The hottest movies showing now, he must have already seen it.

He hates routine, It makes him bored. He likes to get to his goals and succeeding in doing so is his true reward. Money making is O.K. but it is not his true joy, for he can easily spent them in a short while. They say if you want the truth, go and ask Sagittarius. They are right, you can ask him and he will tell you all the truth and very straight forward. Even he may speak bluntly, his friends loves him. If you have problems, all your friends may feel sorry for you, but Sagittarius will be the one who will give you a helping hand first and even expect no return favor. That's why he is a real charmer even sometimes big mouth.

When he is mad , he can be quite fierce but quickly dissolve and easily forgotten. He is not a person who will take a revenge, so if he say he going to burn down your house, you can relax. He likes compliments and sweet words, so you can manipulate him easily. If he knows you are not sincere, you will totally become meaningless to him.

Some Sagittarius are gifted musician, or singer. He is a happy soul, has a good humor and has lots of jokes. He loves freedom, lively and very energetic. If he is working, he will take his job seriously. He likes to travel, likes to see new exciting places. Going out or traveling make him happy.

Sagittarius man is like a free bird. He lives as if everyday is Sunday. He will hardly be in a bad mood, but if he is in a bad mood, you will better leave his sight. If you want to talk to him in such mood, try to avoid issue of commenting his life. He flirts like other man, but he has a built in brake, so he will come back to you by himself. If he disappear for a few days, not to worry for he is only recharging his battery to be that same lively person again, them he will be back.

He has allergies to Pretty woman, so in love with many woman for him would be normal. Setting dating schedule is his games and it's fun for him, and this will keep him from being bored. He hates obligations, so the word "marriage" would suffocated him. If you allow him to have freedom, he will not go anywhere.
He falls in love as easy as he catches cold, especially if she is cute, funny and she has a strong personality. No one can tell how long he will be in love each time. If you want to really hold Sagittarius man, act like you are in an adventure movie. At all time, you should make yourself lively, tells him some jokes, always be cute so that it will ease up his allergy to other pretty woman a bit.

Something about me

29 November 1982

Your date of conception was on or about 8 March 1982 which was a Monday.

You were born on a Monday
under the astrological sign Sagittarius.
Your Life path number is 6.

Your fortune cookie reads:
Fame, riches and romance are yours for the asking.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445302.5.
The golden number for 1982 is 7.
The epact number for 1982 is 5.
The year 1982 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/25/1982 and ending 2/12/1983.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Dog.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Owl; your plant is Mistletoe.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Menchir, the second month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 13 Kislev 5743.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 14 Kislev 5743.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.9.8.18 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 9 tun 8 uinal 18 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Monday, 12 Safar 1403 (1403-2-12).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 11 April 1982.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 18 April 1982.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 24 February 1982.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 30 May 1982.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 6 June 1982.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 18 September 1982.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 8 April 1982.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 23 February 1982.

As of 9/2/2008 4:59:35 AM EDT
You are 25 years old.
You are 310 months old.
You are 1,344 weeks old.
You are 9,409 days old.
You are 225,820 hours old.
You are 13,549,259 minutes old.
You are 812,955,575 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:
Jon Knight (1968) Kim Delaney (1961) Cathy Moriarty (1960)
Jeff Fahey (1956) Howie Mandel (1955) Garry Shandling (1949)
Chuck Mangione (1940) Peter Bergman (1939) John Mayall (1933)
Diane Ladd (1932) Vin Scully (1927) Madeline L'Engle (1918)
Adam Clayton Powell, Jr. (1908) C.S. Lewis (1898) Busby Berkeley (1895)
Louisa May Alcott (1832)

Top songs of 1982
I Love Rock `n' Roll by Joan Jett & the Blackhearts Eye of the Tiger by Survivor
Ebony and Ivory by Paul McCartney & Stevie Wonder Centerfold by J. Geils Band
Maneater by Daryl Hall & John Oates Jack & Diane by John Cougar
Don't You Want Me by Human League Up Where We Belong by Joe Cocker & Jennifer Warnes
Abracadabra by Steve Miller Band Hard to Say I'm Sorry by Chicago

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.6825831702544 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Thursday.
Your lucky number is 3.
Your ruling planet(s) is Jupiter & Neptune.
Your lucky dates are 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th.
Your opposition sign is Gemini.
Your opposition number(s) is 5.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 88 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 26 candles.

Those 26 candles produce 26 BTUs,
or 6,552 calories of heat (that's only 6.5520 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.97 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1982 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.
In 1982 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1982 in the US there were 2,495,000 marriages (10.8%) and 1,180,000 divorces (5.1%)
In 1982 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1982 the population of Australia was approximately 15,288,891.
In 1982 there were approximately 239,903 births in Australia.
In 1982 in Australia there were approximately 117,274 marriages and 44,088 divorces.
In 1982 in Australia there were approximately 114,771 deaths.


Your birthstone is Citrine

The Mystical properties of Citrine

Citrine is said to help one connect with Spirit.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Yellow Topaz, Pearl, Diamond


Your birth tree is

Ash Tree, the Ambition

Uncommonly attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with its fate, can be egoistic, very reliable and trustworthy, faithful and prudent lover, sometimes brains rule over heart, but takes partnership very serious.


There are 114 days till Christmas 2008!
There are 127 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing gibbous.

Moon's age (days): 13
Distance (Earth radii): 57.60
Percent Illumination 97.86%
Ecliptic latitude (degrees): -3.60
Ecliptic longitude (degrees): 45.50

Lee eng tee

There are 9 letters in your name.
Those 9 letters total to 42
There are 5 vowels and 4 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:
Latin Male Lion.
Irish Male Poetic.
English Male Meadow or wood. Shelter. Famous Bearer: 19th century American Confederate general Robert E. Lee.
English Female Meadow. Surname or given name.
Celtic Male Healer.

Your number is: 6

The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.

The expression or destiny for #6:
The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.

The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.

If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much.

Your Soul Urge number is: 7

A Soul Urge number of 7 means:
With a number 7 Soul Urge you are very fond of reading, and retreating to periods of being alone and away from the disruptions of the outer world. You like to dream and develop you idealistic understandings, to study and analyze, to gain knowledge and wisdom. You may be too laid back and withdrawn to really succeed in the business world, and you will be much more comfortable in circumstances that are tolerant of your reserve, your analytical approach, and your desire to use your mind rather than your physical being.

You are very timid around people that you don't know very well, so much so at times that casual conversation and social situations can be strained. You tend to repress your emotions to the extend that some people have a good bit of difficult understanding you. You tend to be very selective with friends and you don't easily adapt to new environments or to new people very quickly.

The negative traits of the 7 include becoming too much the introvert and isolated from others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8

An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

Back from my trip

Hello people,
I just came back from my m'sia trip. So it's time to write an entry, well this entry will not have any pics of my m'sia trip cos i never took my digital cam to m'sia. Well the trip is simple cos it's only a few days trip mostly went shopping for stuff. Bought 3 pair of jeans, 2 shirt,1 T-shirt on the first day in Taiping, A ring, necklace one the 2nd day while visiting some monastery in Ipoh and i clear casing for my DS , a dunno what they call green spirit bead bracelet while visiting more monastery in Penang. And celebrated my grandma's bday on the second day, play ard with some of my little cousin's that lend my DS to let them play. Most of them and just kids not much to talk about, so just play with them lor. Well beside that i slept alot there even more then i can say when i'm in singapore, too laid back the place it just gave you the mood that you lie down any where in the house you'll fall asleep in a instance.

time to sign off cos hair dry liao maybe get some sleep of my uncomfortable coach ride back form m'sia

A different sunday

Went to a church, lost my senheizer nokia headpiece, got to meet and know a few people. Moral of this story you gain some you lose some.

How i was back then?

Passive, procrastinating and depressed conclusions of me after the talk after training yesterday with Anthony, that's what i have became these 3 years. He reminded me how E.T was the crazy fun guy that will admit he need a girlfriend, does anything that he want to, makes decisions on the spot and a whole lot confident guy before he entered Poly. (For ppl that don't know E.T are my initials.)He is fun,confident and cocky. And one thing anthony said i was the one making him the way he is now the cocky instructor. Back then when i just got transferred to STTS, he was this boring person that only knows karate and taekwando that has been bother by his psycho bitch. I was the one that changed him to the cocky instructor. Well he had the skills to be cocky at his time because martial arts is what he knows, does best and what he liked. I'm just the catalyst that made him dump his psycho bitch and go do lots of crazy stuff with me that's what i thought. And these 3 years in poly i have been mixing with passive procrastinating and depressed ppl too much that i'm influenced by them.

Slacking and bored

It's only 2 days past since i quit to ocbc temp job it felt that i had slacked for weeks going back to the routine of slacking on com whole day play dota a bit get owned then see skype got any china girls add me then talk a bit of crap so they can parctice their English then see msn got any ppl want to chat.

Being true to your self

As being yourself is always what makes you happy. Leo hasn't been true to himself lately for the pass few months. And yet he is trying to be someone else instead not the usually happy person he is that is truly happy.Leo felt that he is strapped and is trying to make ppl happy. And in the end he, himself is not truly happy at all. Trying hard to be someone else that is not him for the pass few months.

boredom writings parts inspired by polar's diplay name long ago

life may sometimes feel like a dream, and a dream may sometimes feel very real. In a dream you can do anything you want in it, but in real life you can always do what you want. Life is a game that there is no reset button for you to hit anytime you done wrong, and there is no walk-through for you in this game. This is a game that i will play to the very end. So live life without regrets.

No motivation and Pondering

Leo think he like this person very much again. But he doesn't have the drive and motivation after he seen the setback and problems within his friends and acquaintance. But he is this thinking of her no matter. So what is Leo thinking? He, himself doesn't even knows the answer. Is it fear? Or is it just because he doesn't love her enough? Maybe he really get his mind straight and is thinking of someone else? Then again he might be just because he don't want the responsibility. He often ponders why did Brenda says that he is a playboy, where he doesn't even got any one night stands and he doesn't flirts to random women. Well, Nobody will know what is going in Leo's head. And even he himself doesn't even know what he has going in his head. Leo thinks he is clear of what he want, as the matter of fact he doesn't know what he really want at all. Just like a kid liking stuff and wanting to do everything. His ability is very limited and often can't do everything. Does Leo really like this girl? If doesn't like her why is he thinking of her every time he stare into space. Why does he yearns to be with her when ever he is alone?

Marriage (leo's own blabberings)

Marriage to Leo this word look so damn strange to him. Why. It is because to him, he see marriage in a different way. Other then taking the vow of taking care, loving each other and spending time together for the rest of their lives. Is it marriage itself can bond 2 person together or is it a chain to lock 2 person together. To Leo, with love, marriage is a bond with mutual understandings and forgiving of both parties. Without love, it is just chains to lock each other up with mutual resentment and torture to each other. So everybody love their partners marriage is a bond, what if the bond slowly became a chain where both parties blame and resent each other for minor faults of each other. Which accumulate through out time and slowly the chain becomes heavier and heavier till both parties cannot take it anymore they will go to a blacksmith(Lawyer) to take away the chain.

Love at 1st sight?

Love at 1st sight for my rather think it as lust in 1st sight. When a person see another and person and have affection for him/her, usually is looking at the appearance of the person. I would call that lust at 1st sight not love.

in a state of confusion and some shit about what leo's thinking

Just woke up from resting. Today at work, slept for half an hour in the morning and an hour in the afternoon. Too tired due to lack of sleep previous night cos of watching some taiwan idol drama series. Man, suddenly feel 卓文萱 is damn cute normally i dun watch this kinda series becos of their stories that i feel are lame and almost the same, which most girls and some women like them. And i dunno why. well women is hard to understand for Leo. OK, enough of Leo's crappy comments.

Thinking back of what sweechee said "Are you in love? your blogs are so emo." What emo anyway? means i'm sad? i dunno maybe is some mixed emotions of lust, desire, boredom and tiredness. Am i in love? I dun really know, seem to not, i think? Well, normally i write blog on impulse that i dun usually think. anything that comes to my mind i'll just type it. Mostly is unfiltered and true on that very day, and maybe after weeks or months i go back to my blog read it i would laugh at the situation and incidents that i type. I laughed at my childish reasoning with those kids in poly when they commented in their blog on me. I laugh at my crazy blog saying i'm in love with so and so in my poly days which i do it for fun. And to boring stuff i do during my poly days. Like confessing to random ppl i know for the fun of it. And saying i love you to almost everyone on msn and getting lame remarks on msn. Well as to yong xiang say i may not have found the one i really love. That's why i say i dunno what's love and i dun need it. Well to me, i think having company is ok but not relationship that's what i told him. Company doesn't have to be any gender spending time enjoying it.Is what best for me right now.

Well i can kinda understand why people dun like me in the first place, cos i'm too true to myself and being direct on comments when i know the person. And comment on almost everything that i dun like even that when it concerns me or not. When i horny, i AM really horny. But usually they think i'm horny all the time cos i like the stare. I got this bad habit to stare. And in my mind i would think about comment like, why the hell is the woman's bra is showing from the side and it's damn fucking disgusting. why the hell is she not adjusting it and keep on staring. And why the hell is her butt crack is showing and her butt ain't as nice looking at all. And why the hell is she fucking ugly. why does that girl's breast looks like she is heavily padded. and why is that stick woman walking in public. It doesn't means i'm horny all the time you dun see my hung standing all the while, right? I stare becos i can't just go up to them and saying it in thier face. And i dun know them i might get a slap for it, if i do that.

And this paragraph is for those that knows me in nyp judo, i'm not horny all the time. You dun see my dick erected all the time do you? Everytime say leo is horny, you all buay sian arh. Leo's head dun always think of Chest, Ass and Legs all the time in a sexual. Although he likes admiring them when they look nice but not is a sexual way. Leo admires them like ppl going to museum to admire art pieces, well the streets is leo's art gallery. Leo can look at them and not get sexcited.Leo is older than most of you he'll only get sexcited if the woman is naked or have sensual body contact. Leo dun look at women all the time, if you notice leo loves to look at clouds and scenery too.

Leo's reality check.

Ok. Few days ago that blog is just a spur of moment. Keep your mind clear, Leo. you know that no one's gonna go crazy with you and even enjoy what you do. So, why have that though of thinking of her when you know that she ain't gonna be just as crazy as you do. Love to you is just emotions of lust and attraction you should control your lust more. Beside giving love is like giving responsibility and care will you really care and you dun even like responsibilities.

ok reality check done signing off.

the meet up

Yesterday morning basically was ard noon, i went to meet up with my army buddy cum poly judo senior and his best fren in poly went subway to crap basically on anything.Acutally i was suppose to meet my poly frens to play soccer at 4pm but in the end i was too relax talking crap i end up cancelling the soccer game.right ard the afternoon we start to walk ard aimlessly for a while it's been along time ever since i walk aimlessly. We suddenly crave for buffet but when we start we only have an hour and a half to order,but in the end we can even survive thru an hour seems like get 1-2 yrs older makes lot of difference. We use to eat mountains of food when we go buffet,for now i only can finish only a plate. After buffet we went walking aimlessly again, looking at girl then walked into the cinema they were thinking of watching a movie but the movies we intend to watch is either i watched or my army buddy watched it b4. Then i said let's just walk ard aimlessly again. we walk and we flet tired and went in mac to have a drink and talk crap again basically we just crap till it's time for my army budddy's best fren to meet his platoon mate for a drink. And in the end we all just went with him for a drink, got to know his fren he doesn't talk much i think it's becos we not very familiar yet. then we start talking about stories of our slack army life 5 years ago. The process of how i went thru mono intake in 46 SAR become a regimental police and finailly became a storeman cum waiter cum untrained pastrian, and then we craping encounters those erie ones. And my amry buddy will start sayiing how 3 ppl died in front of him. All sorts of crap we start crap even untill women, the ard 11 we went to play some pool and end our day then we notice that there dun have NR2 so i took 1N instead to yishun didn't go memorise where it's gonna stop i just sat till the end it ended at katib mrt and i start walking to yishun mrt hoping i can find a bus stop that has NR2 and i ended deciding to walk home to woodlands from there when i can't find a bus stop with NR2 it was 1 plus when i started walk i played my song on my handphone listening to dick cowboy thru my headphone but when i start walking i suddenly think of this girl which made my lonely walk more enjoyable although it was quite tiring after the walk i'm still happy thinking of her and writing this blog. Maybe leo shouldn't jump to any conclusion that he say's he dunno wat's love. Maybe this feeling is just a brief monent of thought, well i think i must not get my hopes up or even think abt it but afterall we are just frens.

Bored

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Leo has graduated from NYP and small thoughts of his past 25 years

For those who are disappointed think Leo would fail and have repeat modules. You are wrong i never failed a single module in my whole 3 years in NYP. Only got lousy grades for them because i love studying in the last minute. Sorry for the dissappointment.

Has graduated sum days ago (20th May 2008 graduation day) but only now have the mood to type a blog.

Finally graduate from NYP a place i love and hate to be in. For love i like the lectures and my tut grp that i spend my 3 years with. Hated for the cock ppl that do a lot of cock stuff in the campus during my 3 years.
After getting bad grades for my 'N' levels in secondary sch i choose to got to ITE instead and went to learn automotive in heavy vehicles after graduating from ITE yishun.
I realized i'm not very fit to be a grease monkey and there comes National Service a place where every boy learns how to be a man some way or the other.Same old stuff BMT in 46th Armour posted to Ammo Base after a provost course having a Fucked up yaya corporal, lao jiao ask you do cock stuff ,teaching you how to tuang when doing your duties for 8months Then tranfered to supply transport training school, catering training wing, to be a waiter cum store man serving the minister lunch, doing officiers catering and bais of IC and racism in camp.
After NS is work went thru some logistic work and sales work having know competitors staff put down our product when thier product quality is worst then us.
Then got to go Nanyang polytechnic to study, since after all these years it made me realise how every person spend thier life studying 10plus years just to get a better job in life and so called work for a living. The better the economy the hapier the ppl when economy goes bad the ppl complians and rising living cost can't meet ppl's living standards.
So what's living a life anyway, to most ppl here is having a house maybe a car have enough money for children's education.To some other parts of the world living is just to feed the stomach no let it hunger and have water to quench thier thirst.
So what are living to you anyway. i keep asking myself over and over. Searching a life which has no definite answer.

To me right now i lead a normal life so thats my life for the past 25 years, then for the rest of my life i'll keep searching for the answer till i go to my deathbed. While i stumble and fall in the process of searching the answer.

Slacking at home

Hohoho, been slacking at home for quite some time suddenly remembered i have a blogspot. It's been quite some time ever since i came here to blog, kinda forgot about it. Seems like i finish my poly studies for quite some time already. times seems to fly past and i'm going to 26 already. up till now still can't get a proper job.Has been hunting for it on and off. Well if i do get a job i'd be happy.

Mahjong, and some stuff

After such a long time i ever played mahjong, i still feel that i suck at it. Went to melvin's house to play mahjong with patrick and ricky. Aiya, i think i forgot to greet melvin's mum, how rude of me. Took me so long just to play 1 full round from 6 till 9. WTF!!! That means i suck lar. After that patrick gone to meet the guys. And ricky send me home, great person. He ask me why i never go out with patrick and the guys. Normally i dun like to drimk much lar and they usually do stuff i hardly do. Hardly contact with most of them actually, but ricky said try to stay close and dun be left out. Which is quite true need to catch up with them more. kinda felt abit lost when they are talking abt things. Ya and b4 the mahjong session i felt bored in my lab sitting in front of the com while "doing" my FYP and i just see anyone on my msn and told them i love you. got loads of reaction mainly most of them online at that time where guys. they felt disgusted saying they are not gay or something like fuck you. got a few said "i love you too". And one asked me "FYP too bored is it?". To let you know yes i'm bored and those that said i love you too knows that i'm bored. i'm bored becos someone dun belive wat i said so i go ard telling ppl "i love you". just to let go of that uneased feeling. felt better when patrick suggested mahjong at melvin's place. Here by i'm giving a special thanks to those who say "i love you too" and "i will try to love you. " guys. And a normal thanks to the ppl that replied to make me not so bored although they where some what rude comment. Basically from my point of view those that gave me somewhat of a rude comment they dun think of me as close to them. Now i know who are those who knows me well.