in a state of confusion and some shit about what leo's thinking

Just woke up from resting. Today at work, slept for half an hour in the morning and an hour in the afternoon. Too tired due to lack of sleep previous night cos of watching some taiwan idol drama series. Man, suddenly feel 卓文萱 is damn cute normally i dun watch this kinda series becos of their stories that i feel are lame and almost the same, which most girls and some women like them. And i dunno why. well women is hard to understand for Leo. OK, enough of Leo's crappy comments.

Thinking back of what sweechee said "Are you in love? your blogs are so emo." What emo anyway? means i'm sad? i dunno maybe is some mixed emotions of lust, desire, boredom and tiredness. Am i in love? I dun really know, seem to not, i think? Well, normally i write blog on impulse that i dun usually think. anything that comes to my mind i'll just type it. Mostly is unfiltered and true on that very day, and maybe after weeks or months i go back to my blog read it i would laugh at the situation and incidents that i type. I laughed at my childish reasoning with those kids in poly when they commented in their blog on me. I laugh at my crazy blog saying i'm in love with so and so in my poly days which i do it for fun. And to boring stuff i do during my poly days. Like confessing to random ppl i know for the fun of it. And saying i love you to almost everyone on msn and getting lame remarks on msn. Well as to yong xiang say i may not have found the one i really love. That's why i say i dunno what's love and i dun need it. Well to me, i think having company is ok but not relationship that's what i told him. Company doesn't have to be any gender spending time enjoying it.Is what best for me right now.

Well i can kinda understand why people dun like me in the first place, cos i'm too true to myself and being direct on comments when i know the person. And comment on almost everything that i dun like even that when it concerns me or not. When i horny, i AM really horny. But usually they think i'm horny all the time cos i like the stare. I got this bad habit to stare. And in my mind i would think about comment like, why the hell is the woman's bra is showing from the side and it's damn fucking disgusting. why the hell is she not adjusting it and keep on staring. And why the hell is her butt crack is showing and her butt ain't as nice looking at all. And why the hell is she fucking ugly. why does that girl's breast looks like she is heavily padded. and why is that stick woman walking in public. It doesn't means i'm horny all the time you dun see my hung standing all the while, right? I stare becos i can't just go up to them and saying it in thier face. And i dun know them i might get a slap for it, if i do that.

And this paragraph is for those that knows me in nyp judo, i'm not horny all the time. You dun see my dick erected all the time do you? Everytime say leo is horny, you all buay sian arh. Leo's head dun always think of Chest, Ass and Legs all the time in a sexual. Although he likes admiring them when they look nice but not is a sexual way. Leo admires them like ppl going to museum to admire art pieces, well the streets is leo's art gallery. Leo can look at them and not get sexcited.Leo is older than most of you he'll only get sexcited if the woman is naked or have sensual body contact. Leo dun look at women all the time, if you notice leo loves to look at clouds and scenery too.