Depressing thoughts of 2018

Dragging myself to work everyday, putting on a happy face to idiots that think about your freaking work performance only.

2018 is a tough and difficult time for me. Ppl think i'm happy at giving lousy work. Health issues isn't getting any better.

Frequently emotion joyrides given by certain ppl, made numbness of my hands and feet being more and more frequent. Trying to find ways to get more income. Yet it is so hard since you have no network and contacts. And your only best friend has left this world with your father having a second stroke. And you having to fear that youself will too get a stroke, due to the constant numbness. Not everyone will know how you feel. Not everyone understands how you feel.

Ppl taking pride in beating you down cos you work in the public service. And your own organisation is constantly fighting a internal war to taichi things. It's freakin disgusting and tiring to work in a place like this where you have to constantly watch your own back. And you go back to a place that is always constantly giving you a lot of different shit compliants about your children that is due to their way of interfering your teaching of your children in the past. Where you have no place and no one to tell or vent out your problems

Everyday have to handle all the emotional shit.